I love you....

It may be bad timing
It may be too soon

I cant help my hearts' desire
in loving you too the moon

You speak like no one believes in you
or in your ability to think

But your simply throwing out the paddles
and your boat is starting to sink

My hand is extended
I believe in you

But my heart is in shambles
skeptical of a love that felt so true

Check

More has happened in the best 7 months, then my entire life. I have grown with and against my will, and strides are overwhelming.

It has been the worst period of my life but at the same time it has been the best.
I have a past filled with mistakes that make me cringe, and good times that make me smile.
But the past is a mere afterthought, and that is only because thats the only way i can think in order to get where i am supposed to be.
I have aspiriations far exceeding what i would have thought 7 months prior
and I have elliminated all of the things that arent relevant.
Aspirations include; Art School, Nirvana, Following through with love, truly changing someones life(for the better), Child, pro wrestling and Chimpanzee

Elliminations include; Career, sucess, marriage, dependency, and lastly crucial mistakes.

Not that anyone reads this, and I am not trying to impress/show/talk to anyone, it is simply nice to evaluate shit outside of my clusterfuck of a epithalamus.

But if anyone does stumble upon this... I love you all.

Manga

Put On Your Sunglasses Bastads

"It's lonley at the top in whatever you do, you always gotta watch motherfuckers around you, nobody's invincible no plan is fullproof, we all must meet our moment of truth."-Guru of GangStarr

I can't fix the past, I can barley control the present, all i can do is make sure the future is promising...nothings going to hold me down.

It was written.

Salim, Jamal, Latika. Its crazy how i make this movie relate to my own life. i see myself as jamal and salim. I have one person i will go to the end of the world for, yet, I hurt heart her, I betray everyone, and leave myself out to die... but in reality i put a gun to salim and im letting my jamal shine. Jamal tells Latika he loves her... she responds "so what." Thats how i feel.... i know its pretty far fetched but i hope everything pans out like it did for Jamal...dreams hahaha.

Humour For Once

Thinking about everything has usually made me depressed, but when thinking about people that dont effect me in any positive way yet still try and bring down directly or indirectly has forced me to laugh a little. First off, I have done some pretty selfish things, admittidly i have thrown a few pitty parties in my day but i did them because i yearn for everyones acceptance and love... but my selfish acts have made me a better person because i actually learn from them... (This is where all those people come in) Selfishness is an ugly trait that everyone possesses but not everyone lets it control them the way others do. These selfish people are funny to me because the only time they ever stepped in and were concerned with what i have to say is when i said something that made them insecure. I have not used names at all, but yet when i do describe someone they know exactly who they are...even if i'm not describing them...thats hilarious to me. I mean i could write something saying how im going to eat laundry detergent and maybe one or two people would show concern,and tell me to grow the fuck up, but if i mention that someone else is concieted bitch, or likes to put peanut butter on their nuts, all of the sudden my words are important? haha thats great shit...high school is almost over fuck it. I love you all....

nothing compares 2 U

Sinead is the best musician that never progressed. Her music is extremely strong. She is a blues singer, but sounds nothing like it...but when she reached stardom she never got to stay. She rocked a shaved head and spoke her mind. but no one agreed with her, and they shunned her, all because she spoke her mind, and raged against the machine. 20 years from now she'll be hearalded as a musical saint, but in present she is gone from the public eye... She pulled off the shaved head pretty well, i must say.